I woke up too early. I tripped down the stairs and lay flat on the floor to stretch my perpetually sore back and sleep a few more minutes (a lot more minutes).
Once I was in the exquisite, almost-asleep-fluffy-cloud-unicorn-rainbow state of mind where life is at its best…
The buzz of a mosquito interrupted my zen floor moment.
My happy balloon popped and I flailed my arms around, break-dance style, trying to swat the pest.
Darn mosquito! Disrupting my back-stretching sleep! Gah!
The power of that buzz was much stronger than my will. The nagging little insect had complete control of me – to prevent my sleep, to force me into motion.
My thoughts control me from time to time too.
I obsess over insignificant details that suck out my energy. I become embittered by a passing comment never meant to injure me, which makes me furious at everyone and no one. I summon any manor of self-loathing and savor it while I miss the sweetness of life.
This morning with my mosquito, I chose to get up and out. I surrendered my sleep for healthier avenues. I won the battle.
Another way to victory would have been to hunt the insect and smash it.
Either way, I was not going to lie there and take the disruptive buzzing. I was the boss of the situation!
When negativity takes my mind hostage, I must remember I am victorious in Christ Jesus.
Just because a thought sprouts does not mean it must grow.
With God, I have strength and power.
I am able to take captive every thought that is not true! Tedious, energy-sapping details; bitterness and anger; self-hate – these are not healthy things to think about.
2 Corinthians 10:5: We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ.