A new command I give you: Love one another. As I have loved you, so you must love one another. -John 13:34
Do you love Me?
I hear this question resound through my head at all times- when I’m in the grocery store, alone in my bedroom, struggling to complete tedious tasks at work. And each time I hear it, I answer the same way. Yes, Lord, You know I do.
Then He speaks again, softly, yet with an urgent undertone. Do you love Me enough to break for Me?
Break for Him. That would require a rendering of my heart, a vulnerability to extract any self-preservation I hid deep within me and cast it at His crown. Can I do this?
My heart is shielded. By this nothing can penetrate to its core unless I allow entrance. It’s been safe, static. The beat in its chambers are steady. To crack the armor means to welcome pain, welcome feeling, welcome the weeping of others. I am far from perfect, far from forgiving those who have wronged me and left me weary and alone, and I fight this feeling of feeling.
The deepest secrets of me want to feel, though. Desperately. Do I allow this? I try, but I cover it back up because I am tired of the scraping of my heart until it’s empty. I dance around breaking into my compassion and keeping it at bay. Indecisive. Unsure of the holy incision to sustain being human, breathing alive.The deepest secrets of me want to feel, though. Desperately. @SRennAwake Click To Tweet
But a pulse pounds in the distance. I lift my ears and follow the sound until I reach Calvary. There, atop a trodden and treacherous hill, lies my Love. His eyes grab my soul, His thorns removing mine. And as the final breath bubbles from His mouth, a flood of restlessness chips my strength, and I am emptied. Moving with no effort, He fills me with a tenderness I could not, would not, possess on my own. Yet this tenderness is solid, striking. My heart beats in time with His, squeezes when I see His face in the lines and curves of those I meet.
I came to Him, walls up, and He met me, palms bleeding at the foot of the cross. He exchanged His heart for mine, giving me the purest form of love imaginable- life. All He asks is for me to share this wonderful gift with hurting hearts, so very similar to my own.
Jesus was broken for me; how can I not break myself for others in return?